Guinness Adjudicator. Now there's a job for you.

I have a post coming up in which I pinkslip about a young woman (an influencer) whose company specializes in running over-the-top travel and events. One of the recent events she came up with made it into the Guinness Book of Records for the largest champagne bottle service presentation. Who even knew this was something one would compete for? 

There are, of course, dumber records than number of champagne corks popped. Like walking on beer bottles. Stuffing matches up your nose. And wearing the most ever pairs of socks put on in 30 seconds. (I've put on two pairs, which may or may not have taken 30 seconds to accomplish, but for the record, the record is 28 pairs.) 

But what I found interesting in doing a bit of poking around regarding Guinness, is that there is a professional position involved in all this record setting, and it's the job of Guinness Adjudicator. 

Based in 15 countries and speaking 18 languages, our 69 adjudicators are accomplished public speakers and are fully media-trained. They also create a highly effective focal point for photo opportunities and audience engagement.

If your event is taking place online or needs to reach multiple audiences in more than one location, our remote adjudicator services and video announcements are ideal for creating an air of prestige and positioning your online event as an authentic Guinness World Records attempt.

As well as verifying and announcing the record results, the adjudicator performs many other important roles including:

• Explaining the record guidelines and answering any questions ahead of the event
• Checking all measurements and any equipment required for the attempt
• Briefing stewards and carrying out spot checks (mass participation events only)
• Assessing and verifying the record attempt on the day
• Engaging the audience
• Participating in media interviews

Source: Guinness World Records 

Adjudicators are either staff members or contractors, and the pay doesn't sound all that great. According to the latest from ZipRecruiter, staffers make an average of about 62K (in Boston, $67K), but there's a pretty wide range of actual salaries. Contractors are paid by the gig, and can stand to make more. 

But what a strange job.

They make money because Guinness makes money from corporations who pay to have an adjudicator on hand so that they can make a backed-up claim in their marketing materials. E.g., Russell Stover set the record for the largest box of chocolates. For whatever reason, HSBC Global Procurement wanted to set an employee participation rate for "most people in a Mexican wave video relay." Lenovo? They set the record for "most laptops toppled in a domino fashion." What will they think of next?

Rather than ask what they would think of next, I tried to come up any records that the companies I worked for might have had a reasonable shot at setting.

While surely the record would have been broken by now, for its time, the product launch for Genuity's Black Rocket web-related services might have set the record for largest high-tech product launch expenditure that yielded nothing in return. (I believe that was the year before the company had its failed IPO - at the time the largest failed IPO in history - and started to descend into bankurptcy. Talk about bragging rights!)

One company I worked for had a product centered on IBM's OS/2 technology. (OS/2 was an operating system.) I think we could have set a record for how many times sales and marketing employees sat around pissing and moaning about our dependency on OS/2. Especially in the days after the cover story for one of the premiere tech magazines was about the demise of OS/2. The cover itself showed an Boot Hill style coffin labeled OS/2, with a lily on its top. Sigh.

I'm sure I could come up with a few more record setters that I was personally involved with back in the wayback of a day. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

I do know that I never would have had the interest, let alone the budget, for hiring an adjudicator to adjudicate a record for us. 

I'm sure that at some point Guinness will figure out how to replace its adjudicators with AI, setting some sort of record in the process - "most Guinness adjudicators laid off by an AI in 60 second time slot" - but for now I'm guessing their jobs are safe.

So if you like to travel, measure, promote, and adjudicate, there might be a job for you out there.

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I love the smell of Play-Doh in the morning

Few smells are as evocative of my childhood as the unmistakable smell of Play-Doh.

In the latter stages of the 1950s Play-Doh became available, and my parents - no one's idea of early adopters - glommed on to it, and Play-Doh quickly became a staple in our house, showing up in everyone's Christmas stocking.  (Interesting, I just found out - thanks, Wikipedia - that Play-Doh began life as a putty used to remove coal soot stains from wallpaper. Demand dropped off when folks switched from coal to natural gas or oil for heating.)

Ah, the smell of Play-Doh. 

And I'm apparently not the only one that finds an olfactory Rosebud moment in Play-Doh. In fact, in 2018, Play-Doh maker Hasbro trademarked the smell, which the company:

...formally describes as a unique scent formed through the combination of a sweet, slightly musky, vanilla-like fragrance, with slight overtones of cherry, and the natural smell of a salted, wheat-based dough. (Source: Hasbro)

I couldn't have come up with anything quite so wine-loverly. All I know is that my appreciation of the perfume that Play-Doh emits is the nose version of what a judge once said about smut. He couldn't quite describe it, but Potter Stewart said "I know it when I see it." Well, Play-Doh-wise: I know it when I breathe in that delectable aroma, an aroma that:

...makes the PLAY-DOH brand one of the few active and certainly most famous scent trademarks in the country.

On beyond the wonderful Play-Doh smell, I loved the fact that, when modeling clay came in dull, muted colors, Play-Doh was vibrant. Back in the day, it came in three colors: red, yellow, and blue. But as anyone who held a color wheel in kindergarten knew, with those colors you could make orange, green, and purple. Alas, you couldn't unmake the colors, so once you'd committed to those extra colors, you had less of the basics. 

Another advantage of Play-Doh over modeling clay was that it was more flexible, more pliable than clay. 

The only downside of Play-Doh was that if you didn't get it back into its cardboard container pdq - and if the jar wasn't hermetically sealed - it hardened up and got all crusty. You could quasi-restore it with a bit of water, but Play-Doh got stale fast. 

Play-Doh has, of course, morphed over the years with all sorts of brand extensions. For one thing, there are a lot more colors to work with, including pastels and sparkly ones. You can get all sorts of accessories, like cookie cutter molds, and there are kits along a lot of different themes: cooking, playing vet, etc. Inevitably, there are tie-ins to other kiddo brands, e.g., Peppa Pig Play-Doh kits. 

The company has also been climbing up the age ladder, with themed kits - Star Wars, Mandalorian - aimed at older kids and "kidults", 13 on up. 

And now "Hasbro is unveiling its most grown-up brand to date."

The new line comprises a series of modeling compound kits that guide users through the process of turning putty into floral arrangements designed to be displayed. (Source: Wall Street Journal)

Unlike the Star Wars and Mandalorian, Blooms - the new product line - is aimed at crafters. Female crafters. 

Hasbro's CMO, Jason Bunge, has this to say about the market:

“We’re not manufacturing a new need state...We feel Blooms is meeting something that consumers are looking for.”

I'm only putting this bit in because of the term "new need state," which I guess is what we used to call a manufactured need. Anyway, Hasbro's marketing plans include:

...enlisting more than 200 creators, from professional influencers to niche fans of pottery, crafts or flower arranging. It’s also planning a full-day creator event in Brooklyn and hosting a hands-on crafting experience at the Whitney Museum of American Art in New York to stoke media buzz.

With Blooms, Hasbro may well be on to something. A lot of folks I know - including adults young and old - have taken up crafting with a vengance. It's engaging, stress-reducing, and entertaining, and, if the makers don't feel compelled to Insta everything they make, gets people away from their screens. (A while back, Legos launched a line of bouquet-crafting kits that are pretty pricey and have been pretty popular.)

Although I won't be buying a Blooms kit, I hope that Hasbro succeeds. As long as they don't try to tamper with the wonderfully evocative smell of Play-Doh. Reminds me of victory childhood, and I absolutely love it.

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Four on the Floor. (Make that Five on the Floor.)

I saw on the news the other day that about 0.6% of cars sold in the US in 2025 had a manual transmission, and this has been the case since 2021. "To put that shift into perspective, in 1980 manual transmissions made up almost 35% of new vehicles sold in the U.S." (Source: Reader's Digest)

In 1980, I didn't own a car. But when I bought my first car in 1986, it was a used manual - a 1980 rusted out Honda Civic I bought from a colleague for $2K. I needed that car to commute to the 'burbs, where my company had moved. (Ugh.) 

When I got my Honda, I had had some experience driving a stick, but it had been a while. I learned to drive a standard when my friend Joyce and I drove cross country in her Karmann Ghia, but most of my driving was on the highway. Joyce did much of the city driving, including in the hills of San Francisco, and the scarier driving in the national parks. 

The Karmann Ghia, like my Civic to be, had a four-on-the-floor gearbox. 

During our trip, I never got all that skilled, particularly with downshifting. To downshift, I would throw the car into neutral and then make my way to the right gear.

But when I needed a car, I decided - what the hell - to get a manual, which was available and cheap. My friend Michele took me out for a few practice ones in her Ford Escort, and I paid for a few lessons with a driving instructor - a young Hispanic man who came to my lessons wearing a sharp sports jacket and a yellow bowtie. 

When I first learned to drive in 1966, the family car was an automatic, so that's what I learned on. Although certainly everyone's father (and any mother who had a license: many didn't, including mine) knew how to drive a manual, the family car of almost everyone I knew was an automatic, which had become quite popular in the 1950s. 

The one exception was my friend Diane, whose family car was a three-on-the-tree (i.e., gears mounted on the steering column) station wagon that also lacked power brakes and power steering. Watching her drive that car was a workout in itself. 

Our friend Kathy wanted to learn to drive a manual, and Diane taught her. Kathy's family car was a nifty Dodge Dart with a press button automatic shift. No heavy lifting on that one. (I may have "driven" Diane's station wagon one time in a parking lot, as I have a vague memory of trying to steer the beast while I was bucking it from first to second.)

After a couple of years of noble commuting use, my Honda Civic died. Something to do with a bearing rod? I got $100 for the trade in, a deal negotiated Honda sight unseen, by my friend Tony, who spoke to the salesman in Greek. When I brought the car in, coughing and sputtering all the way, to pick up my new Mercury Tracer, the dealer said that, if he'd seen the car, he wouldn't even have given me the hundred bucks. 

My new Mercury was five-on-the-floor, as somewhere along the line a new gear - fifth - had been introduced. 

I had the Tracer, which I really enjoyed driving - other than the fact that it was to commute to a job I despised - until I got a job on public transpo. I put an ad in the Want Advertiser and sold my Tracer pretty quickly. 

While I liked that car, I was more than happy to get rid of it.

Commuting to work on the Red Line, reading The Globe, which I picked up each morning from a vendor working the Charles Street T station, was easy-peasy. But, alas, the company decided to locate to the dreaded suburbs, so I was back to car ownership.

This was 1998. Volkswager had just introduced the New Beetle. How could I resist? 

I bought a manual - again, a five speed - and decked the car out with an artificial daisy in the bud vase on the dashboard. I loved that car. As did pretty much everyone.

Shortly after I got it, I was at a Sunday afternoon party attended by a few dozen folks. Half the guys at the party asked if they could take my cute-as-a-button, bright blue Beetle, out for a spin, so I handed them the keys and a bunch of them took turns driving around the block.

Because the thing about manuals is that they're fun to drive. 

Oh, driving a manual can be a PITA - especially if you live in a city or are ever in stop and go traffic. And I'm pretty sure I burned my clutch out once grinding away trying to parallel park in a tight spot. 

That said, there are advantages to driving a manual. They are (or used to be, before they started going extinct) cheaper to buy, and are more fuel efficient. If you wanted to rent a car in Europe, it used to be hard to find an automatic - and definitely more expensive. And, while they're not theft-proof, if fewer and fewer people know how to drive a stick, the automatic-only car thieves will give yours a pass. 

The best thing about driving a manual is that you actually feel like you're driving.

When manual transmissions were the norm, drivers had to touch and manipulate the shifter, in tandem with the clutch, constantly while operating a vehicle. Passengers saw this action taking place, and shifting gears became imbued with meaning. It represented the allure of the road, for all its good and ill, and stood in for the human control of a big, hot, dangerous machine screaming down the pavement. The manual transmission’s impending disappearance feels foreboding not (just) because shifting a car is fun and sensual, but also because the gearshift is—or was—a powerful cultural symbol of the human body working in unison with the engineered world. (Source: The Atlantic)

This may be overintellectualizing things, but yeah. 

And as fewer and fewer people drive manuals, the ability to drive a shift gives you a bit of a bragging right. You're a cool kid. (Kinda sorta.) And R-E-S-P-E-C-T, especially if you're a woman.

Although we all learned to drive on automatics, all of my siblings drove standards, as did many of my friends. But gradually, they all went over to what we would kiddingly call the dark side. Mostly not by choice, but by necessity. It was just getting harder and harder to find a standard. And now, except for some niches, it's almost impossible. 

It's easy to imagine in a world of EVs that don't have gears, in a world where autonomous vehicles are becoming normalized, that the manual will become totally extinct, except among absolute gearheads who will probably have to build there own.

There's about a six-nines chance (99.9999%) that I will never own another car. There's a similar chance that I'll ever drive a manual again. 

But, damn, I just plain miss the very idea of it. 

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ICE and violence seem to go hand in glove

I guess they've been around for a while now, but until ICE announced that they were putting in a big ol' order for electric shock gloves, I'd never heard of them. But they've been used by police officers, prison guards, and even school resource officers for years. 

The device that ICE is acquiring is something called a GLOVE. This is not a glove as you and I might think of a glove. Something to wear when it's cold; something to wear when gardening; something to wear when slicing raw chicken. No, it's GLOVE as in an acronym for Generated Low Output Voltage Emitter. And don't let that "low output voltage" fool you. A GLOVE, especially in the wrong hands, can administer a shockingly painful shock.

GLOVE is produced by a Kentucky-based (surprise, surprise) outfit named Compliant Technologies

Our mission is to provide innovative, non-lethal solutions that empower law enforcement, corrections, security, and healthcare professionals to handle dangerous situations with confidence and control. (Source: Compliant Technologies)

Well, innovative can be a mixed bag - it doesn't always go hand-in-glove with wonderful/marvelous - but non-lethal sounds good. I'm a bit concerned about healthcare professionals as an audience. I know that people can flip out in a healthcare setting, and that patients can become violent, but aren't there de-escalation methods that don't involve shocking someone, which seems like a particularly awful choice in certain environments. Like a hospital. Like a school.

Interesting, the value proposition for the product is not primarily about non-lethality. In fact, they lead with the technology's ability to lower liability.  

How so, you might ask.

Let's hear from Assistant Police Chief Adam Glueck of the Cape Giradeau, Missouri PD. 

“In today’s society, you know, everybody’s filming everything, everybody has a cell phone,” Glueck said. If an officer punches someone on camera, that can go viral in an instant; even a standard taser leaves puncture wounds. But “the glove is low optic, and it looks better on camera, and it looks better to those witnesses. With a glove, there are no burn marks or scars.” (Source: Mother Jones)

Glueck joked that “If I try to take away the gloves from those officers at this point I think we may have a mutiny on our hands." Oh, hah hah hah.

But having a "low optic" torture device, unlike a taser shooting out those treacherous darts, let alone a billy club applied with full force? Who wouldn't want one of those? Look, Ma: no burn marks, no scars. Lawsuit, smawsuit? Bring it! That video some misguided civilian took of the GLOVE'd individual writhing around on the ground in pain? Crisis actor! Fake news!

Glueck isn't the only gushing proponent of the GLOVE. Or to point out the beauty of GLOVEs-on when it comes to liability.

It’s been successful “from the patrolmen to the jailers,” Lumpkin County Sheriff Stacy Jarrard said in a Compliant Technologies promotional video. “It’s been a great tool as far as mitigating liability,” according to Nelson County Jailer Justin Hall. Bob Couey of the Floyd County Sheriff’s Department sung the GLOVE’s praises, too: “I highly recommend these gloves to anybody that’s looking for a utility they can use that is conducive to not leading to lawsuits.”

Lumpkn County, Georgia. Nelson County, Kentucky. Floyd County, Florida. 

Just sayin'. 

(Despite GLOVEs being positioned as anti-liability devices, there are at least a few lawsuits out there with respect to their use.)

Anyway, after hearing from the Boss Hoggs of the world, let's hear from the bleeding hearts:

The technology is unregulated “despite the clear human rights risks associated with its use,” Amnesty International researchers wrote in a 2025 report detailing instances in which electric-shock devices have been used for torture. The report ends with a recommendation that countries “cease use of, decommission and destroy any stockpiles of such prohibited electric shock weapons.” 

Worrying about "clear human rights risks" doesn't exactly seem to be ICE's jam.

And needless to say, I'm Team Amnesty International. 

Meanwhile, over at Compliant Technologies - recipient of that $20M of our tax money ICE contract - founder Jeff Niklaus sounds like a bit of a nutter:

...who believes that President Donald Trump has been “anointed” by God. He is also a sometime conspiracy theorist: In a podcast interview in 2025, he blamed the fatal crash of a passenger plane and a military helicopter on “the vaccines,” and on the Biden administration’s inclusion of women and LGBTQ people in the military.

If Trump were indeed anointed by God, well, I'd have to eat my halo. 

Some law enforcement agencies warn against using GLOVEs "against pregnant women, the elderly, or people in shackles." A GLOVE user guide advises not using it against "those with obvious health conditions." But, gee whiz, in the heat of battle, you can't always tell if someone is pregnant. Sure, I'm old and grey, but would someone necessarily clock me as elderly? (Okay, don't answer.) And what about non-"obvious health conditions?" The only thing that's clear about the must-avoid list would be someone placed in shackles, which is clearly visible. And which ICE seems to do with alarming frequency.

Not to worry:

“Our officers are highly trained in de-escalation tactics and regularly receive ongoing use of force training,” an ICE spokesperson told Mother Jones.

Alex Pretti and Renee Good might have something to say about that, if they were alive to say it.

I have no problem whatsoever with ICE rounding up baddies and shipping them back to from whence they came. Murderers, rapists, gang members, drug lords. So long, all of yez. And I know that when you're dealing with bad guys, sometimes you need to use force. But most of those who are being rounded up aren't bad guys. (Someone coming in for a meeting to talk about the progress of their greencard application is probably not a violent criminal.) And, as we've seen from countless videos, many of them are being brutalized. 

I can't wait for this nightmare to be over. 

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It was the best of states, it was the worst of states

I am a complete and utter sucker for state rankings, especially those that are flattering to my home state and the handful of other states I could actually see myself living in.

Massachusetts tends to come out high when things that I value - education, health/healthcare, reproductive rights, worker protections inclusiveness/gay rights, crime rates - are used in the criteria, and not those that are less favorable, like cost of housing and weather.

In a recent CNBC rating of the best states to live in, my beloved Commonwealth was ranked ninth, wedged between Nebraska and North Dakota (as an aside, which I can't resist making, the only red states to make the Top Ten). We came in lower than our fellow New Englanders NH, Connecticut, and Maine, and lower than the #1 state to live in Vermont. Personally, I love Vermont, but my husband (a native) couldn't stand his home state. To each his own...(The other states in this particular Top Ten were Minnesota, NJ, and Hawaii, all places I could at least kinda-sorta imagine myself living, although I think I'd get sick of the perfect balmy weather in Hawaii.)

Given whose on top, most people can likely come up with at least some of the states languishing in the Bottom Ten when it comes to quality of life. Arkansas. Oklahoma. Alabama. Missouri. Utah. Georgia. Louisiana. Indiana. Texas. Tennessee.

The surprise to me on this list is Utah. Not that I can imagine living there, but it always strikes me as a reasonably good place to live, especially if you're LDS. But Utah gets dinged on not having enough primary care physicians and daycare centers, and having a dismal minimum wage.

Massachusetts gets points for having a ton of primary care providers, which I find somewhat ironic given that there are zero PCP's affiliated with my healthcare system (MGH/Brigham & Women) in the entire city of Boston who are taking new patients. I know this because last fall my PCP went concierge, and the only way I could get a Boston-based PCP was by agreeing to work with a resident physician. Which is fine, but it's not great for relationship-building, as the residents are only around for a couple of years.

Of course, quality of life doesn't seem to get in the way of being one of the top states for doing business in. Texas, Georgia, Tennessee, and Indiana may be crappy places to live - and I can guarantee that I will never, ever, ever in a million-billion years get to find this out up close and personal - but they're good for business.

According to the CNBC rankings, Ohio is the best place to do business, but Texas rates a number four position; Georgia comes in at seven; and Tennessee and Indiana round out the Top Ten. Massachusetts is number 15, higher than I would have predicted. Our cost of doing business is abysmal (49th out of 50), but this is counter-balanced by our quality of life (if you don't count housing and weather), our techiness (We're Number 8, a bit low as far as I'm concerned) and our education (We're Number 1!) 

These rankings are, admittedly, pretty non-sensical, but I always get a kick out of them. And, hey, we could all use a bit more nonsense in our lives - and these ratings seem like relatively harmless nonsense.

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Eleventh day of each September, we remember, we remember

Twenty-five years ago tomorrow, I was in Orlando on business. At a smallish tech conference, one of those gatherings where a company (e.g., mine) paid to get in front of a captive audience to talk about the market (theoretically) and their product offerings (the true reason to be there). The conference was run by the Gartner Group, a consulting firm that sold tech research and advice. I have no idea what Gartner is about these days, but way back then, they were a big deal and quite high end. So the conference was being held at a pretty fancy golf resort.

I was tired. My mother had died a few weeks before, and I'd spent the weekend, with my sisters, visiting family in Chicago, which is where my mother was from. It had been a bittersweet but fun weekend, highlighted by the backyard second wedding of my Aunt Kay, my mother's baby sister - 24 years my mother's junior, more like a cousin than an aunt when we were kids. For years, Kay had lived in what had been my grandmother's summer house, where, throughout my childhood, we spent the first two weeks of July every other summer. 

So it was a bittersweet but loving weekend, catching up with my aunts and cousins.

We flew back to Boston on Sunday, and I had to turn around and hop on a flight to Orlando on Monday morning. There was some commotion with the flight - a last minute concelation, a rebook on an earlier flight (ugh!). But I made it to Orlando.

I was giving a captive audience presentation on web hosting when the first plane flew into the North Tower at the World Trade Center. When we walked out of the presentation - no one had thought to come in and interrupt us - the hotel had already rolled a few TVs into the open area outside the presentation rooms. It took a few minutes to figure out what was going on, to process what we were watching. After a few minutes, everyone pretty much fled to their rooms. Where I watched the first building collapse, then the other. I kept shaking my head in disbelief. I couldn't believe the buildings were gone.

Throughout the morning, throughout the afternoon, like every one else, I was glued to the TV, trying to piece together information. I took a break to grab lunch with a colleague, then back to the TV. 

The news was sparse, confusing, terrible. Beyond awful. Beyond belief. 

Somewhere, I learned that two flights had been out of Logan, both bound for LA. I had been on American Flight 11 a few months earlier. Gulp.

It was pretty clear from the outset that there weren't going to be any/many flights from and to anywhere in the States for a while, so I spent the afternoon trying to figure out how to get home, now that the conference was canceled. Fortunately, thanks to a family connection at Amtrak, I was able to book a train going north, with reservations for me and my colleague. (The other option we had was renting a car and driving, but those rental cars were going fast.) 

I hadn't brought along any comfy clothes, so I hit the resort gift store and bought some hideous golfware: black Capri pants, a white sleeveless tee, and a blue golf sweater. I felt like I was on the LPGA tour, but I wanted to travel in something other than my business-lady pantsuit.

We left Orlando in the evening, not knowing how far we were going to get. All they were promising was Richmond, Virginia. It wasn't known whether we were at war, the extent of the attacks. Was Washington, DC under full attack? Was NYC? Was this our Pearl Harbor?

My colleague had family in Richmond. Worst come to worst, we could stay with them and maybe his cousin could drive us further along - maybe even home. My colleague's wife was pregnant, pretty far along, and you never know. So he was particularly anxious to get home. Everyone we spoke to was. 

Approaching Richmond, we learned that we'd be heading to DC, where we could grab the train to NYC/Boston.

DC was eerie, eerily quiet. 

They held the train for us, and we rode to NYC in the same car as Carol Burnett. 

Leaving Newark, the car went completely silent as we watched a black cloud extending pretty much the length of Manhattan. All that was left of the Towers and the thousands who had died there. 

My husband met me at the Back Bay Station at around midnight. I was never happier to see anyone in my life. 

That night, I couldn't sleep.

I'm not sure if I went into work on Wednesday, but at some point, I had to go to Logan and pick my car up.

When I did go in to work - was it Wednesday? was it Thursday? - no one was doing any work.

We caught up with colleagues who'd been on the road and started to hear about their long journeys home. One colleague had been heading into our office in lower Manhattan when he saw the first plane hit. Somehow, he had the presence of mind to find the first car rental place and get the hell out of lower Manhattan. (Scott Something. I can picture him, but can't recall his last name.)

My company had a small network operations center on the top of one of the Towers. I didn't know the guys who worked there, but I was friendly with their boss. He was on the phone with them when their Tower collapsed. He heard the noise, the great rumbling. The guys had just told him that they had been instructed to head to the roof, that they'd be rescued by helicopter. At least they died with hope...

It was all so unimaginably awful.

For weeks, the images of the collapsing towers, of the people jumping to their death, would intrude unbidden into my mind. Again  and again, I would shake my head.

I had trouble sleeping. (Didn't everyone?)

I didn't know anyone on those Boston flights, in those Towers. But I knew people who knew people. 

I read the terribly sad writeups in the New York Times that gave us a glimpse into the lives of all who had lost their lives. 

I read the stories of heroism. Those brave firefighters heading into the buildings. Others who risked their lives. The men who for months worked The Pile, trying to find remnants of the lives lost. The men on the flight headed to DC who, having learned of the attacks, charged the cockpit and forced their plane down in a field, saving countless lives while losing their own. 

On 9/11, my niece Molly, nearly five at the time, saw her parents crying and asked them what was wrong. My sister had lived in New York for nearly a decade, and had met her husband there. She explained to her little one that something bad had happened to their town. "Was it my town, too?" Molly asked. 

From the first moment I laid eyes on Manhattan, when I was a senior in high school, New York has been one of my favorite places on earth. I only lived there for one year in grad school, but it was my town, too. And Molly's. And pretty much everyone in the United States during those grim days. 

Hard to believe it's been twenty-five years. 

Eleventh day of each September, we remember, we remember. 

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Can't we just leave this woman alone?

The Lindsay Clancy trial is over. For now, anyway. 

It ended last Friday with a hung jury, a mistrial declared. The story is that there were 11 votes for not guilty by reason of insanity, with one hold out for one of the criminal charges (murder one, murder two, manslaughter) - even though it is said that the holdout had admitted to having some doubts of their own, but ignored the judge's directives on reasonable doubt and voted to convict anyway.

Clancy's attorney made a last ditch effort to have the judge dismiss that one juror and replace them with an alternate, but that went nowhere.

So mistrial.

The DA/prosecutor will decide whether to bring the case to retrial, whether to bring lesser charges, or whether to strike some sort of deal that would spare Lindsay Clancy and her family the agony of going through another prolonged and painful trial. Given that the DA appears to be a publicity hound and had something of whatever the prosecutorial word for hard-on is when it comes to Clancy, I'm betting he goes for some sort of retrial, even if it is just a bench trial (no jury, judge only), which will deprive him of the spectacle that this jury trial became. (First degree murder was surely an overcharge, but I'm sure a strategic one: put the heavy duty charge out there that everyone knows is unreasonable, so they'll vote for one of the lesser charges.)

Although I was not watching the trial avidly, it was pretty hard to avoid if you live in these parts. Front page news. Lead story on TV news. Streaming live from the courthouse. The talk of the town, alright.

All the elements were there: a pretty young white woman from an affluent town who kills her three children. (Bonus points for Irish Catholic family. This is Boston, after all.)

Inevitably, the trial brought out a cadre of groupies (if that's the right word). Most were in support of Lindsay Clancy, sympathizing with a mother who - they (and 11 of the jurors) - they thought was in the throes of profound, drugged-up postpartum psychosis. But there were some demonstrating outside the courthouse on behalf of the three little ones who were killed. They wanted justice, which to me looked a lot more like vengeance. 

The trial definitely brought out some crazies, including a woman who was arrested for taking pictures of the jurors - a big NO-NO - but claimed she just wanted "a picture of Lindsay."

What the hell for? She could have found a million pictures of Lindsay Clancy out there. The "old" Lindsday Clancy, the loving, pretty, vibrant mother leading the seemingly perfect life: loving husband, three beautiful children, a fulfilling career (labor and delivery nurse), strong family ties, supportive colleagues, charming house in a picture-perfect little coastal town. And a milliong pictures of the stricken Lindsay Clancy sitting there day after day while the jury heard her crimes described, where the post-mortem pictures of those beautiful children were exhibited, where experts on both sides claimed she was or wasn't crazy.

I watched very little of the trial. Just what was unavoidable if you watch the local evening news.

The pain, the grief leapt off the screen.

And to compound it all, the true crime internet-ers were having a field day, making sure that their perceptions and speculations were getting airtime. Is she or isn't she crazy? Is she or isn't she a cold-blooded murderer? Did she heartily dislike one of her kids? (I've yet to meet a mother who at one moment in time didn't have a feeling of intense dislike for one or all of her offspring.) Was her husband having an affair? (MYOB, for godssake. And so what if he's remarried?) Was he, in fact, the killer? Or just not sympathetic or caring, letting his wife go through the hell leading up to the slaughter of those innocents. Why didn't he pick up the clues? (Better question: why didn't all the doctors she saw, all those doctors who prescribed all those drugs, pick up on the clues?)

Why did the husband change shoes between picking up the takeout and calling the cops when he found his kids' bodies, or whatever the eagle-eye internet sleuths were going on about? (It was winter. Maybe his feet were wet. Maybe - get this - he was in shock.) 

She's a grifter. He's a grifter. Her parents are grifters. Just look at those GoFundMe's!

Whatever ends up happening to Linsday Clancy, whether she ends up in prison or in a psychiatric facility, there is no punishment that can be any worse than what this woman is enduring.

I doubt she'll ever have a scintilla of joy for the remainder of her life. In moments of awareness, she knows what she did. She has admitted to killing her children. She won't have a waking second when this doesn't weigh on her.

Whether she's in a prison or a psychiatric hospital, there's probably not all that much difference. She'll be locked up. She'll have no control over what she does, what time she does it. No autonomy. The food will be awful. Ditto the clothing. The everything.  No choice. No walks on the beach. No picking wildflowers. No raiding the fridge for your favorite midnight snack. Here you go, like it or lump it. 

And the little things in life that once gave her joy and purpose.

She'll never work again as an OB-GYM nurse, a job she loved. Who in their right mind is going to let her near a baby? She had three little ones; she worked in labor and delivery. She pretty clearly loved babies. Would you let her hold your baby for a nano-second? No one would. What if she had a psychotic break that made her do something awful. 

Ditto for anyone ever letting her alone around children. Ain't going to happen.

Probably for the better. I can imagine that the joy, the sweet little faces, the laughter of kids would be torture for her. Even the whining and squabbling would be. 

Lindsay Clancy is on suicide watch, but part of me thinks 'why not let her?' What's the point of keeping her alive?

If she's a woman of faith - and she was a practicing Catholic - I guess she can hope that she can be forgiven. That there's an afterlife when she can reunite with her little ones and beg their forgiveness. And just be in peace and joy with them. 

Maybe if she regains her mental health she can help other inmates in whatever facility she's in. She can help others with their GEDs. Plump pillows and empty bedpans in the infirmary. Find some purpose in her life, now that the purpose of wife, mother, and nurse is no longer hers.

I don't pray, but if I did, I'd be paying for Lindsay Clancy. For peace and quiet and a life away from the prying eyes and obsessive intrusions of the 24/7, always-on people who don't know her from Adam.

I know she did something beyond imagining, beyond awful. Hypocrite, I, for writing about her. But can't we just leave this poor woman alone?

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